Thursday, November 11, 2010

Getting over it

This phrase means a lot of things to me right now:
- I'm sick and don't seem to be getting over it;
- One of my best friends for nearly 4 years is getting married this weekend and I wasn't invited because we haven't talked much in the last 2, and I need to get over it;
- I've let dozens of close friends go because I'm too self-absorbed in making sure my life is where I want it to be, that now that it is, I don't have anyone to share it with. I need to get over it;
- The love of my life is more wrapped up in his job than he is with me. I need to get over it, or move on;

All of these things are getting to me, and I'm eating everything in sight. Since I'm sick, I'm not working out. I hate this cycle. It happens far too often, but I don't know how to fix it. I think the phrase suck it up might be appropriate, but in another way I think I need to actually deal with this at some point. Again, I just don't know how.

Saturday, November 6, 2010

New Motivation

Just under a month ago I ran my 3rd half-marathon. I had finally gotten under 130 lbs, and was doing well. And then I got cocky. I've been eating like crap, not sleeping well, not hitting the gym, and even without getting on a scale I know I've put on weight.

I'm making myself a terribly delicious dinner tonight, but tomorrow I'm back on the saddle. I'm going to hit the trails and do some circuits around the apartment. Stick to my healthy, tasty meals, and just generally get back to being happy and healthy just in time for the holidays.