Getting over it

This phrase means a lot of things to me right now:
- I'm sick and don't seem to be getting over it;
- One of my best friends for nearly 4 years is getting married this weekend and I wasn't invited because we haven't talked much in the last 2, and I need to get over it;
- I've let dozens of close friends go because I'm too self-absorbed in making sure my life is where I want it to be, that now that it is, I don't have anyone to share it with. I need to get over it;
- The love of my life is more wrapped up in his job than he is with me. I need to get over it, or move on;


All of these things are getting to me, and I'm eating everything in sight. Since I'm sick, I'm not working out. I hate this cycle. It happens far too often, but I don't know how to fix it. I think the phrase suck it up might be appropriate, but in another way I think I need to actually deal with this at some point. Again, I just don't know how.

New Motivation

Just under a month ago I ran my 3rd half-marathon. I had finally gotten under 130 lbs, and was doing well. And then I got cocky. I've been eating like crap, not sleeping well, not hitting the gym, and even without getting on a scale I know I've put on weight.

I'm making myself a terribly delicious dinner tonight, but tomorrow I'm back on the saddle. I'm going to hit the trails and do some circuits around the apartment. Stick to my healthy, tasty meals, and just generally get back to being happy and healthy just in time for the holidays.

I failed

As happens nearly every weekend, I failed at keeping to my diet. I had drinks, fries, and lots of carbs. I don't really know why I do it, other than I have issues with depriving myself whatever I want at that exact moment. I do it when shopping, eating, and even drinking.

So here's a new pledge. I will go without carbs at least 5 days this week. I will work out at least 4 days this week. And I will limit my drinking to Friday and Saturday. I need to realize that a) I can enjoy myself without all of that crap, b) I will be happier if I can lose some weight, and c) I will save some money and use it to buy something cute and fun when I'm back to my normal body.

I will also be better this week about posting. It will help me to reflect on where I go wrong, and even better, where I go right!

Turning it all around - June 14th - 145 lbs

25 lbs to goal

When it comes to sticking to a diet, I have a tough time with days 1-2, then again over the first weekend. If I can make it through that long, I'm usually good for a while. More recently, my biggest issue is when I travel, which is often. Tomorrow I'm traveling again, and it's going to be tough, because I'm not only traveling, but am at a conference, which means lots of bad food. With my dietary restrictions, finding anything to eat will be a stretch, so I'll likely eat anything and everything I'm able.

Today, thankfully, we had community service that kept me working outside, and I was able to walk a few miles. Fresh fruit it my savior, and I'm looking forward to making a delicious tofu stir-fry, without noodles, or rice. I've always been best at attempting the low-carb diets because i can eat more of the other stuff. I may try, however, to start cutting unnatural foods out.

I need to be healthier. With a family history of high cholesterol and cancers of all kinds, I need o be more conscious about what I eat, how much I work out, and keep myself moving forward towards looking better in my beautiful Louboutins.